Dishes Discipleship

I live in a house with my 11 brothers. I love them so much.

The complication of 12 guys under one roof is chores, most specifically dishes. It has been the most popular topic of discussion at our house meetings, simply because there is always a mess in the kitchen.

You wont believe how much God has revealed to us through our situation with dishes.

First of all, there are two sides in the dish situation: the proud and the selfish.
The selfish says he doesn't have time to do his dishes.
The proud says he does all his dishes and wont stoop to clean the selfish's dishes.

Granted, each does dishes. But each fails. The selfish fails in doing his own, the proud fails to pick his brother up to do his dishes.

The proud must be humbled, and inform the selfish of his err. If I am trampling my brother, I hope he tells me so I can stop. And I want to have strength to tell someone they are trampling me. Its about laying my life down, but also remaining human. (See the real explination of "turn the other cheek")

Dishes have become an analogy for "problems", and this is the most outstanding revaltion.
There is a sink full of dishes, a world full of problems.
Will you walk by the dishes and say these aren't my problems. I've cleaned my dishes, my problems are solved.
Or will you say, I'll do all these dishes, but I'm not going to really tell anyone where they could improve (call my brother out in his "sin").
Or will you help clean the dishes and ask your brothers to help clean with you?


Anyways, its beautiful, the analogies that ring strong and true.

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When Uncertainty is the Only Certainty

I'm at a time in my life, for the first time in my life, where I do not know what is next. I have no plan past 9 weeks and 2 days.

I am graduating.

Then what?

Soon I'll have to make a commitment, to either stay in Columbia, paying for rent and food, but staying where I feel the most community. Or, I can go home, and live with my parents for free while I figure out a plan. I soon must make a decision based on faith as to whether I will make things harder on my self for the sake of being close to my girlfriend and closest friends, or go home, where the job market is much more favorable for a man in my position.

Damn.

For the first time ever, things are so uncertain.

But I cant help but feel like there is a reason for this. I cant help but feel as though God has me in a situation where I have to losen my white-knuckle grip on my life and let Him take control. Sounds easy doesn't it? [sarcasm]

And I think the hardest thing is that people keep asking me, "Keith, what are you doing after graduation?"
"Well... I dont know yet."
"So... what are you going to do if you dont know?"
"...are you serious?"

I mean, I've had a couple conversations where people just keep prodding and I dont know how to kindly say "Look, you're stressing me out. I realize the severity of my situation, but it is intentional."

maybe thats the way.

I dont know. Its hard because most of the places I've applied are looking for people now. So when I send my resume and cover letter that say "I will be graduating in May and seeking a full time position", it doesn't matter to them because they're looking for someone now. So hopefully [hopefully, hopefully, hopefully] it will be easier come May. Else, I'm screwed.

And what if I am screwed? Then what? What if I cant pay rent? What if I cant find a job that will offer me health care? What about when my student loans start requiring payments?

I dont know, and maybe that's the point.

Which seems to be my mantra lately...

Maybe I dont know, and that's the point. Amen.